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Linger

For someone at this age, I just realized that I am a type of person who can fall at a single touch. Maybe because tonight I can’t sleep so I think too much (too much caffeine in my blood). Or maybe because it is dawn already and they say you can think clearer at these small hours of the morning.

I am not a touchy feely. I can’t do that just casually. But to those I am close with, I can always feel.

There are several touches in some instances that still give me tingles even only by remembering them. And sometimes memories come rushing in with all butterflies in the stomach.

There is especially this one. It was even more than a decade ago. Until now, I can’t even figure why that happened. But the sensation I felt at that moment, I can still feel it.

Why is this lasting sensation? Chemistry? Because there’s some feeling that is put into the touch? Overthinking?
The memory lingers. The feeling lingers. The question lingers.

And then there’s this urge to see the one causes it. It’s not like I have any particular feeling now. Even when I check, I don’t feel anything (many times I even shudder because too many have changed, and I don’t even know was it used to be for real).

Though there’s this little thing, a what-if. What if I’ve asked the reason why that happened, what that touch meant. What if there is no change (appearance-wise, character-wise, status-wise). What if the time can rewind. If I knew the reason, would it make any difference now?

What is this exactly? I can’t even call it infatuation or obsession, because it’s less than that. But it feels deeper than just passing thought.

Honestly, I don’t like the now. I only like the used-to-be (or the one I used to imagine?). It is not the object, but the memory. But is it all just because it is unclear and unfinished?

Decaf

I craved some Americano this afternoon. So there I went and bought. Hell now I can’t even sleep a wink and it’s 3 am already here 😭

I know that I just can’t with caffeine. And now I regret it.

I plan to go to the gym tomorrow. But now, I don’t think so 😫😬

Where Is Ten?

It’s months already… I pray that he is just fine… And most of all, happy. I hope he smile that beautiful smile everyday. I miss him so muchΒ πŸ˜ŸπŸ˜­πŸ˜‡πŸ™

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Attack on Titan

Few days ago I stumbled upon an episode of Attack on Titan on TV. Well, I heard about it somewhere before. But I was not interested.

And now, I’m hooked! In two days, I have watched up to the latest season 2, including the OVAs. Now I can’t wait for its third season. And I am following its manga version also, have finished reading the latest update. The whole plot keeps me at the edge of my seat!

My favourite character… probably Captain Levi? He’s very cool isn’t he? 😍 😍

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Cheat

Have seen, heard so many, too many stories. Too many reasons, too many motives, too many heartbreaks, too many tears, too many apologies, some forgiveness, some separations. Happiness, satisfaction, greed, pride, longing, bravery, love. Anger, fear, stupidity, despair, shame, inferiority, depression, disgust, hate.

“That person is so much better.”

“I am bored. I need something new.”

“Because that person is more beautiful.”

“I’ve found my true love.”

“That person is boring.”

“I’m just curious.”

“That person is too demanding, I feel suffocated.”

“No particular reason.”

“We are too different.”

“That person understands me more.”

“One is just not enough.”

“I no longer care.”

“It’s all for fun.”

“That person is no longer the same person I knew.”

“I fall in love again.”

“I fell out of love.”

“I’m sick of that person.”

“That person no longer cares about me.”

“Just too many arguments.”

“It just won’t work out.”

“That person is pathetic.”

“I am not happy.”

“That person can’t understand me.”

“Let’s just go our separate ways.”

“I hate that person.”

“This is only temporary.”

“No strings attached.”

“Let’s break up.”

“I can no longer tolerate that person.”

“The sex is great!”

“That person is my happiness.”

“That person has no time for me.”

“Money talks.”

“I can share my heart for two. Piece of cake.”

“I am happier without that person.”

“We are just in THAT stage of relationship. It’s not always bed of roses.”

“I can not trust that person anymore.”

“Is this relationship the right thing for me?”

“No more desire with that person…”

“This is so wrong.”

“This feels so right.”

“How could you?”

“Why can’t we?”

“Can we?”

“Is it all worth it?”

“If only…”

 

One thing leads to another.

People change with time. Or they are just assholes–the original, best kind of assholes. Sometimes it’s in the genes.

Or is it simply fate? Or fate is just for them to justify what’s inevitable; that they just can’t control their hormone?

Is it wrong to be in love? Is it right to be unfaithful?

It used to work. Not anymore. It used to work. It should still work now.

Grow old with you. Grow out of love because of you.

It’s not one man’s fault. It takes two to tango. The cheater and the cheated? The cheater and the cheater? The cheated and the cheater? The cheated and the cheated?

People make mistakes. People have brain for goodness sake. And sometimes heart too.

It’s so human. Yet so inhumane.

Blame God because it happened. Blame God because He created such kind of disgusting act. Thank God because it ever happened. Thank God because He created love.

Skincare

Until some months ago, I was struggling with white heads, blackheads, dry skin, cystic acne, dull skin, large pores, you name it. My skin was quite sensitive too. And I knew that my skin badly needed hydration. And I tried to overcome it with Laneige Water Bank line, but it just did not work for me (or maybe it was something to do with the makeup I used at that time, which makes my skin problems even worse?).

And so since few months ago, I started to be more active in searching THE RIGHT combination for me. And I’ve tried several skincare products that do quite amazing job. I know, that every skin is different and not every product does the same wonder to different people, BUT when some bunch of people say that is good, then it is worth trying (samples are great). So I also wish to thank some bloggers who dedicate themselves and their time into testifying the products. Continue reading

“Love Is Ever-present”

Recently stumbled upon this song on my playlist. I love the lyrics so much. It’s bittersweet.

 

“Love Is Ever-present”

 

After grocery shopping, they cook dinner together

For her, he gets home as quick as possible

Love is ever-present, but when one is seeking for it, it appears nowhere to be found

 

On the tiny balcony, she takes away the withered bonsai plant

He faces the beer mug, waiting for the next download

Love is ever-present, but then again, so is sadness

 

Love is…

On the streets, in the little alley ways, in the sea of people

But who would love to be stranded on a tiny island, never to leave?

When love isn’t meant to be, that can’t be the only time to love

It doesn’t matter where one is, love is always there

 

My love is present as the sunset hits your fringe

Your love is present as you’re tying my neck tie in the mornings

We all want love but rarely end up having it

Hard to understand, we can only hope for it

Love is ever-present

 

That is love, in retrospect, I’ve realized that this is love

Whether it is crying, or smiling, it all has to do with love

It matters not if it’s good or bad

 

The snowflake always yearns to see the cherry blossoms bloom

Liang Shan Bo let down Zhu Ying Tai*

No matter when or where, there is always sadness everywhere

 

Love is…

Under the sun’s shining rays, under the warm candlelight, every speck of dust

Who would love to sit in the dark, never to stray into the light?

When love isn’t meant to be, that can’t be the only time to love

It doesn’t matter where one is, love is always there

 

The breeze relies on the branches to dance

The seeds depend on the soil to break loose

Love is in all the world’s wonders

Even if the eye cannot see it, love is still there, exceeding one’s expectations

 

My girl, come over quick

Love is anticipating (love is there, love is there)

Love is ever-present

Our love is ever-present

 

My love is present when I’m downstairs looking for your door

Your love is present when you’re leaning on my back

We want love, yet always end up separating

Hard to comprehend, we can only hope for it

Love is ever-present

 

*something like a Chinese Romeo and Juliet

ζ„›εœ¨ (Ai Zai/Love Is Ever-present)

By: Khalil Fong

Translation credit:Β jpopasia andΒ  incomplete-melody.blogspot.com

 

Bias Clash

So, apparently SUM Restaurant (or is it Cafe?) owned by SM put up a Christmas Tree somewhere and here’s what I saw…

The tree was made of SM artists names and drawings (credit: NCT_TY71)

So I searched for my two biases… And there they were:

Sitting beside each other! LOL πŸ˜‚


Okay, just figuratively, but nonetheless this made my morning. It’s a wonderful (fangirling) world 🎢🎢 lalalalala… 🎢🎢

*Another unimportant snippet: Seohyun is wearing that #11 Oh! costume, so it’s 10 and 11 side by side! Kkkk… I’m so lame, I know πŸ˜‚πŸ˜…πŸ˜«

Smile, Smile!

Been several days I watch this video to start my day. And I think this’ll be my habit for long.

His smile is contagious and that is a good thing to start a day. It is gonna be a good day ahead πŸ˜πŸ˜ŠπŸ˜†β˜ΊπŸ˜„πŸ˜€πŸ˜‰πŸ‘¦πŸ‘§πŸ™†πŸ˜Έ

(Video credit: sentimental fly @youtube, a good video indeed. Thank you *hug*)