Test

Everything is like a test right now

Be it real life, or fangirling.

Not an ordinary test which just confuses you.

It is a painful kind of test.

Which means I just I have to get through it.

Or endure it until the pain feels numb.

We’ll See

And I’m losing my mood to continue my long-pended post. I wrote about YongSeo, but  then I felt the need to check. And I checked and found out what I’ve been dreading. It gives unsettling feeling in my stomach.

Did that once.

I was disappointed and angry.

Said would stop.

But it starts again.

Maybe the temptation is too strong.

Maybe feeling nostalgic? Who knows.

And I’m almost disappointed again.

“Is there anything you want to tell me?”

I will see the reaction. I will watch, hawk-eyed.

“Did you meet?”

“Was it fun?”

Keep no promises.

Do it again and again, time to time.

Disappointing, as always.

 

 

It Is All about What Makes You Happy

I’ve been into fangirling since I was an elementary kid. The Backstreet Boys awakened this thing inside me. It’s old, I know, but they were awesome (oh, their latest “Don’t Go Breaking My Heart” is awesome too by the way!). Of course it was firstly about Nick Carter’s hair flip in “Get Down”, “Quit Playing Games”, “Anywhere for You” MVs which were all over MTV. I listened to their first albums daily. It was a cult!

However, before that, I’ve been into Chinese series, like The White Snake Legend, Return of The Condor Heroes, and Chiung Yao’s series.

And then my fangirling experience were simultaneously in between Western and Asian entertainments.